Channeling Alexander McQueen

I‘m going to go out on a limb here–and waaaay out of my comfort zone–by introducing you to two concepts about myself.

The first, as you may already know if you’ve been reading my blog for a while, is that my brother took his own life in October 2009, and the second is that I am, in fact, a very spiritual person. I believe in life after death, past lives, and our late loved ones’ continual presence around us. Since my brother’s passing, my mother created a blog in which she explores spirituality and life after death. The blog (which I created for her and customized) is called Channeling Erik, and it has become quite the phenomenon–Shirley Maclaine is a reader. (Any fellow Steel Magnolias fans out there?)

I asked my mother to see if, during one of her channeling sessions with Jamie Butler, an amazing psychic medium, she could call forward Sir Lee Alexander McQueen, my favorite fashion designer, to see what his thoughts are about fashion, his life, and beyond.

Below is the direct transcript from the recording itself. Continue on to read and to learn what Alexander McQueen has to say to the world he left behind in 2010.

My mom (Elisa): Well I suppose since we just ended off the last conversation talking about fashion, we can bring forward my daughter Kristina’s favorite, Alexander McQueen. Have you heard of him?

Jamie (the psychic medium): Me? No.

Elisa: Alexander McQueen, he was apparently a big–I think he was British–fashion guru. Maybe he’s available?

(long pause)

Jamie: Well he just looks like “average Joe”! I think I was expecting, with a name like that, something very extraordinary. And yes, he is British, he has quite the accent!

Elisa: Hello Mr. McQueen!

Alexander McQueen: Good day.

Elisa: My daughter, Kristina Medhus, adores you.

Alexander McQueen: Yes, thank you, she calls on me a lot.

Elisa: She worships you! She’s got a blog called Pretty Shiny Sparkly and she’s doing very well with it so far.

Alexander McQueen: Yes, I’m very proud of her.

Elisa: Aw, good! Well I guess you know we’re going to ask you a few questions, for you to give your wisdom to the world.

Jamie: He’s kind of humble! Like, you said “wisdom to the world” and he kind of smiled and dropped his chin down, like, “Me?”

Elisa: First of all, what was your spiritual mission here? Including, what were you here to learn and to teach?

Jamie: (long pause) It–it’s funny when he talks. He doesn’t really make eye contact with me. He kind of…looks up and away? You know like how, people do when they think or something–and so he’s talking…but you don’t feel like he’s talking to you. It’s just different.

Alexander McQueen: I don’t know if fashion would be so much addressed as spiritual in nature, but for me it was. It was the only way I knew how to express myself. And my fashion is very non-traditional. I was never wonderful at painting, but I found that I was an excellent sculptor, and that’s what led me into fashion. There was nothing in my life that encouraged me to go–

Jamie: (interrupts, to Alexander) co-teer? I’m–I don’t know what you’re saying, I’m so sorry.

Elisa: Is he saying couture, maybe?

Jamie: YES! Couture! Oh, yes, that’s probably it.

Alexander McQueen: There was nothing in my life that encouraged me to go couture. Spiritually, I believe what I came to do was, not break any rules or show off that you can be a successful gay man–or even a man in design, in a woman’s world–but for me, it was much more about being able to explain who I was. And still, I feel I failed a lot.

Elisa: Aw…

Alexander McQueen: So many of us can find exactly what we want to do in life and succeed so well at it, that we feel it should fulfill every need that we have in our lives. So, why should we feel disappointed, or not be able to speak up, or say who we are on the inside? Because we’ve done this wonderful thing–and we still are–and that’s where I vastly went wrong. I started shutting down and just became more of a performer. My work became more of a performance and feeding that emotional side to myself.

Jamie: Erik’s saying that he also committed suicide?

Elisa: Oh, okay. Aw…

Jamie: Not telling me how, but…[1]

Elisa: I think, I think he probably did, that rings a bell. Okay. Aw. What were you here to learn, then, Mr. McQueen?

Alexander McQueen: I know I was here to learn personally that success does not equal happiness.

Elisa: Mmhmm. It depends on what kind of success you’re talking about, I guess.

Alexander McQueen: For me it would be success with money and career. It’s such a misfortune because it’s presented to our kids that it would be successful if you have now what you did not have growing up, that it will fulfill those holes and those divots that were created. It’s not accurate.

Jamie: It sounds like he did not have the support growing up or the money growing up, the way that he’s putting it, kind of like average-to-lower standards of living. [2]

Elisa: Aw. Were you here to teach anything, Mr. McQueen?

Alexander McQueen: I don’t believe I was here purposely to teach in a larger capacity, but I know I taught a lot to the poeple that were around me. Especially to my models, the people who wore my clothes. I definitely taught them how to be themselves, and not surrender.

Erik: What do you mean “surrender”, sir?

Alexander McQueen: Surrender to the disappointment that we create in our own head. That we don’t look good enough. That we’re not shaped right.

Erik: Right, you dealt a lot with image.

Alexander McQueen: EVERYTHING in my life, in my career, was about image. I fought really hard to show my models that it really was not about image, this was just the career we were in.

Elisa: Exactly. Now, did you gain any insights?

Jamie: (laughs) He said, when you said “gain any insights” he immediately said that he gained weight. After his passing. He says that he was just able to finally nourish himself! That’s the first time I’ve seen him giggle and really smile about something.

Elisa: Aw, good! So, you got pretty thin toward the end?

Alexander McQueen: It fluctuated. I put it on and lost it, put it on and lost it.

Elisa: So after you passed, did you gain any insights when you looked back on your life?

Alexander McQueen: I gained that I personally was a slow grower. And I saw the people that I grab hold of, that I thought would be a mentor or help me keep stable, were in fact very unstable people themselves. But it was the only kind of person I knew. It was the only kind of comfort I could find.

Elisa: Were they people in that industry, as a whole?

Alexander McQueen: No, I’m talking about the individuals I let very close to me. And when I would have trouble backing away from that connection–because I could quickly then see that it was a wrong choice–the confusion is, when somebody’s trying to get out of a hole, or when somebody feels incomplete, they often grab other people who are in the same hole, or who are just as incomplete as them because it is a familiarity. There’s this need to be uncomfortable [by moving away from those who enable you] so you can find someone who’s not in the same hole as you. Where you’re incomplete so you can find someone who is complete.

Elisa: Oh, yes, I see. Do you have any messages or advice for any one individual, or for humanity as a whole?

Alexander McQueen: If you’re going to present yourself to one person, to a media, to a group, you need to show the entire package. Of how you feel, who you strive to be–if you cannot do that, then you should not be presenting yourself. To not have the strength to really share who you are, you in turn become a liar. You misrepresent yourself.

Elisa (to Jamie): Does he seem sad?

Jamie: Kinda! It’s not….it’s more serious than sadness. Very overly focused and grounded. He’s very intense.

As you can see, Alexander McQueen was a deeply spiritual person (as many biographies have noted) but he had a very dark side to him, an intensity, and it’s apparent from this conversation that he had many regrets about not being more open with himself and with others. To learn more about Alexander McQueen’s collections, you can visit The Met’s blog page dedicated to his exhibition, Savage Beauty, which became the most popular exhibit in the history of The Met. You can also visit the official Alexander McQueen page for full runway collection videos.

Thank you very much to Mr. McQueen for letting us hear your wisdom, and thank you to my brother Erik for finding him and bringing him to all of us.

Elisa: Any more questions? Anything else you’d like to say before we part ways?

Alexander McQueen: Thank you for giving me my time. I wish you all the luck. Do tell your daughter that I come in from time to time.

Elisa: Aw, what do you think about her site, any advice for her?

Alexander McQueen: Keep it clean, keep it simple, and she won’t go wrong.

This is a deeply personal matter to me, so I would appreciate you restricting your comments to only the neutral/positive in tone. It is likely that anything you say that can be even slightly misconstrued as negative will probably play off as much worse in my head. I’m only being honest! So, please keep my feelings in mind when you post your comment.

That being said, your feedback does mean a whole lot to me. I would love to know if you also believe in life after death, that I’m not the only one out there–that I’m not crazy.

Also, if this is totally not your thing, never fear. I will return to my regular posting!

Although, I hope you did indeed like this, I felt it very inspiring, his words of wisdom and how he felt he went wrong with his life (not showing all of his many dimensions to the world, only focusing on expression through his designs). Please feel free to share this with others. xoxo

1 — On February 11, 2010 McQueen was found hanging by his housekeeper. His death was announced later that afternoon. He left only a note that said “Look after my dogs, sorry, I love you, Lee”. reference
2 — McQueen’s family was primarily working-class; he was the youngest of six and they lived in modest public housing (called council flats), the son of a taxi driver and social science teacher. reference

Long Live McQueen

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  1. 02.15.2012 / 12:00 am

    Channeling Alexander McQueen: I‘m going to go out on a limb here–and waaaay out of my comfort zone–by introducin…

  2. Sara carter
    02.15.2012 / 12:41 am

    Hi Kristina,I think what you are doing here is great…I don’t share all of your beliefs, but I do think you are truly brave and a woman to be admired for courage, intelligence and beauty. I have been reading your blog for several months and you have changed the way I care for my skin and apply make up – therefore you have changed the way I feel about myself. Thank you for that and all that you share! It is difficult to share what is near and dear to our hearts with those closest to us – let alone an entire population…bravo!

  3. 02.15.2012 / 6:21 am

    Hey, Kristina!
    I thought this was a very interesting post. I do actually believe that those who have passed may still carry on around us. I know people with “third eyes” who can see them clearly, and as for me, I can only see shadows when they want me to see them. So yes, I do believe. And he’s right – I don’t think you could go wrong. You’re one of the best bloggers I know, one of my absolute favorites. You know why? Because you care about your readers. You actually reply to us, and you’re always thanking us. You’re just awesome. 🙂

  4. 02.15.2012 / 6:26 am

    A wonderful post – truly! Like you, I am very spiritual & believe our time in human form is only a part of our souls journey. Thank you for sharing this experience with us. xoLiz

  5. 02.15.2012 / 6:32 am

    This is so wild! I do believe in life after death, and I think this is so amazing that your mom was able to connect with him. It is nice to know that your brother was able to reach a mega celebrity, I guess it’s true in heaven everyone is equal! Thanks for sharing this, I really enjoyed reading this!
    xx Katy

  6. Alicia Schmidt
    02.15.2012 / 7:43 am

    Hi Kristina–Thanks for sharing this. I’ve read your mom’s blog before & it is great & very thought provoking. I’m a very outspoken person who is usually convicted in what I believe or disbelieve. And on this I’m stumped. I believe in eternal life (Heaven) & I talk to God & I believe He hears me so I suppose other people I loved & lost could hear me, too. God hasn’t talked back to me verbally, but I feel He has shown me what to do. My best friend lost her mom in 5th grade & we went back to the old house where she lived & she told me she could see her mom. I didn’t doubt her, even for a second. All this to say, no, I don’t think you’re crazy. I couldn’t help but think about you & several other bloggers when McQueen discussed showing all sides of who you are. I think that can be scary, but there is definitely freedom in that. I know I’ve said a lot, but mostly I wanted to thank you for allowing me into this space. This took courage to share & I really loved it.

  7. 02.15.2012 / 7:52 am

    WOW!!! That’s pretty awesome! I’ve always wanted to go to a reader but I think I’ve just been kind of scared to do it for some reason. I do believe in something after death, I’m just not exactly sure what. There are so many different religious beliefs, theories, etc, that vary in great ways that it’s really hard to pick one and say yes that’s absolutely what I believe in. Alexander McQueen probably has thousands trying to reach him so it’s pretty awesome that you were able to partake in that experience.

  8. 02.15.2012 / 8:56 am

    This was really interesting to read! My Dad is a psychic and has done loads of healings with me but never these kind of readings, I don’t think I’d cope all that well really!Isn’t it funny that our blogs are a little place to express ourselves but yet we fear judgement? Good on you for being brave.

  9. Andrea
    02.15.2012 / 9:25 am

    I thoroughly appreciated this post. Thank you! I love following your posts and every now and then, I will refer to your mom’s blog when I need spiritual insight. I appreciate the blogs that you and your family are doing and share on the free internet with people like myself who might not always have access to information or insight like this. I haven’t made up my mind on the religion I grew up in, but I am convinced that something greater than this life and temporal world exists. I also hope to understand a little bit more about it before I meet my time’s end on this plane.

  10. 02.15.2012 / 1:07 pm

    Hey Kristina,
    WOW. That was an intense post! I do believe in the after-life. I am very spiritual and Christian. There is definitely something bigger than us out there and there are things that we won’t understand until we are there. Being Christian, I don’t believe in psychics/mediums but I, in no way, am going to judge you. We all have to do what we need to do to get through our pain and everyone has a different way. I hope you and yours can come to peace with your brother’s passing. I love your blog & you shouldn’t worry about losing your followers- never apologize! This is the true you-raw and unedited: the way God intended you to be.

    Best wishes & xoxo

  11. 02.15.2012 / 1:53 pm

    Hey girl!Ok first I need to say that- I sometimes feel like I am the only one that believes in things like this. I mean, while I was growing up I wanted to be a ghost hunter (and when I say growing up- I mean from like age 5 to the present). I found this to be very interesting and since I am a huge fan of Mcqueen- I am deeply jealous that he knows and loves your blog 😉
    Thanks for sharing a new type of post with us- not everyone has the courage to do that.


  12. 02.15.2012 / 2:47 pm

    As a Catholic, I too believe in life after death, although probably in a slightly different way than some people. There have been times when I feel the love of someone who has passed more acutely than other times. I often think that is the moment that person is praying for us or lifting us up from the other side; helping us along the way. I can’t see the few short years that we have on this earth as the total end of us and I’m glad it is not. – Katy

  13. Dawn
    02.15.2012 / 3:29 pm

    I know that the energy of the people we lose, is very real and does continue on- I have experienced visits from my loved ones who have gone. So I am glad you shared this, and glad you have some ongoing connection with your beloved brother. I’m proud of you for having the bravery to follow Mr. McQueen’s advice- share ALL of yourself! You’re an inspiration!

  14. 02.15.2012 / 3:34 pm

    Hello, Kristina!This post was really interesting to read. I’ve read all your posts about your brother Erik, and your mother’s blog and I was really moved by them. I can understand the pain you must have felt, and I’m happy you found a way to communicate with your brother again.
    I’m not such a spiritual person myself, and I’m not sure if I believe in life after death, or if I really want to believe in it. Some things scare me, and I don’t want to think about them. However there are times, that I want to believe. Times like today. Today it was supposed to be my father’s birthday, and I’m feeling really sad. I lost him almost 8 years ago, before I was 18years old. I wish I could talk to him again or at least feel his presence.
    Posts like these, give me strength and hope, so thank you!
    And it was really nice to read about Alexander McQueen. You must feel really happy that he knows you and your blog.

  15. 02.15.2012 / 3:38 pm

    This post is truly touching. Thank you for going out of your comfort zone and opening up about this. Alexander McQueen was a true fashion icon and I love the way this post shows him.-LC

  16. Pooja
    02.15.2012 / 3:39 pm

    I admire you for being so brave and sharing this with us! One thing in your post that really stood out to me were the lines: ” To not have the strength to really share who you are, you in turn become a liar. You misrepresent yourself.” It made me hope that I have the strength to always be myself. And not just some version of myself, but the SAME version of myself, no matter who I am with.
    Personally I don’t know if I believe in life after death and that is neither here not there. But thanks so much for sharing something that is such a big part of your and your family’s life. I know that reading this post showed me that you really should have the strength to share who you are and the things that are very much part of you.

  17. nikki
    02.15.2012 / 3:39 pm

    Hey there.Great post, I found your blog via your mom. I too lost a son (Eric) to suicide last year.
    It has been an amazing journey. As a Catholic I had such stringent beliefs. I now know my Eric is around along with your brother. They pull plenty of pranks on me and as crazy as it sounds, they keep me smiling.
    Much love to you, you are a brave gal. BRAVO!

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  19. Nancy
    02.15.2012 / 4:06 pm

    This was an amazing post. Thank you for sharing

  20. 02.15.2012 / 4:10 pm

    Kristina,First of all, I have to say I’m so sorry you had to experience something so heartbreaking as losing someone you love. Second of all, what a great post. You really were honest and earnest with this and I think that’s one of the reasons why you’re so successful, your readers can see that. I visited your mom’s site and noticed (in addition to her being an amazing writer) that her bookshelf doesn’t include any books by Chico Xavier. I highly recommend both of you check it out. I believe in many of the same things as you do and thought his books, in which he tells of the afterlife through the people he spoke to and channeled, and his life story are pretty fascinating. Thanks again for the post. xoxo Natalia

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:38 pm

      Thanks for the tip Natalia! I’m telling my mom about the Chico Xavier books today! Thanks for the recommendation. <3

  21. Denise
    02.15.2012 / 4:28 pm

    I find your blog and very informative. Thank you for sharing.

  22. vickie
    02.15.2012 / 4:33 pm

    Thanks for sharing this post, it was very interesting. From very young, I always knew that there is more to life then just what we see around us. I believe because my guides have proved it to me. Hope to hear more.

  23. Liz
    02.15.2012 / 5:01 pm

    Keep ’em coming!

  24. 02.15.2012 / 5:13 pm

    I truly believe that we all have a life after death and it is to our true fulfillment. Therefore hearing these words of wisdom from alexander mcqueen shows me that we all must full strive for the best life on earth so we can truly relax and not fret about it in heaven or where ever we end up.I loved this post very much it shows a more personal side to you, Kristina, which I love learning about.

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:37 pm

      Thank you for commenting Brooke, it really means a lot!

  25. Lisa Walls
    02.15.2012 / 5:28 pm

    I popped over here from your mom’s blog. Thanks for posting! I enjoyed reading about Alexander.-Lisa

  26. 02.15.2012 / 6:04 pm

    This is super interesting – thanks for including us in on it. I saw the Savage Beauty exhibit at the Met at it was amazing. Great post Kristina!

  27. 02.15.2012 / 7:00 pm

    I absolutely do believe in life after death and have read your Mom’s posts and the story of your brother. I’m so sorry for you loss. I have a younger brother and can’t begin to even fathom the pain of losing a brother, especially if they took their own life. I believe that we all are eternal spirits that live in temporary physical bodies. After we die, I believe that our spirit continues to live on and the place that we live is a result of our choice to receive or reject Jesus and his free gift of salvation. I have personally experienced his love and can’t imagine life without him. I know that many believers don’t show his love and can be quite hypocritical at times, which makes many people turn away from God & have no desire to develop a relationship with him. I personally want to do my best as a believer in Jesus to reflect his true love and the life that he died for all of us to have.

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:37 pm

      Emonne – I couldn’t agree more. You said it beautifully.

  28. steph
    02.15.2012 / 7:03 pm

    Thank you for posting this. You may or may not recall that I had his weird experience where I felt a strong urge, while driving to work one morning, to recommend your mom channel A.M. to which, you promptly agreed and got it to happen. I really had no idea what message he would have for us but was very curious after having such an intense experience (I wont go into detail in order to save space but it was one of those things you could not ignore and made you wonder if the idea was not of this world). I think many of us struggle with this (exposing ALL of ourselves and being honest and true to who we are for fear of judgement) – you even expressed that in posting his message. What a beautiful insight and it rings so true. Thank you for having the courage to post! We are all more alike than different and when we hide parts of ourselves, we miss out on finding true bonds with others who share our same thoughts, beliefs – or more importantly – we miss out on expanding our minds or others by new thought. And most that don’t agree or believe will still love and appreciate you for being you and will not judge harshly. There are always a few that will be harsh but that is their issue, not yours/ours. We all are different and that is what makes this world a lot less boring. 🙂 Keep up the good work ON ALL LEVELS! xoxo

  29. Joanne O'Neill
    02.15.2012 / 7:37 pm

    Hello Kristina,Loved reading this,Thank you, your Mum and Erik.
    How about Coco Chanel sometime? Glad you you moved out of the comfort zone to share this, and A. McQueen himself , not afraid of a bit of edginess, would approve. Well done.

  30. Malgorzata
    02.15.2012 / 7:45 pm

    I reall like what you did! Thanks for showing how important is to get out of our comfort zones. You are amazing!

  31. Katie
    02.15.2012 / 7:51 pm

    Hello Kristina,
    I just had to comment on the “I’m not crazy” comment. Deep down I think people do believe what you believe there just living a fear based life and by thinking differently you’ll be ostrasized. I full heartedly believe in life after death and I did venture over from your mother’s blog. Everything she blogs about has rung true to me and I believe thats why it has grown so fast in such a short time because others finally get the validation that “Hey, I am not crazy after all for thinking this way.” Fancy that! Just keep doing what your doing and always strive to be honest and you will always succeed in what you want and believe in life. Much love, K

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:34 pm

      Thanks so much Katie. Yes I had a lot of qualms about posting this because of fear. Fear of rejection, fear of backlash, fear of losing the readers I respect and love so much. My mom is definitely a brave woman, because she does this every day. Amazing.

  32. 02.15.2012 / 7:53 pm

    Kristina – thank you for posting this, it was enjoyable to read. I know very little about fashion and less about the female part – which is the bulk of fashion, isn’t it – (I’m saying I’m uninformed fortunately also not opinionated) and I think this website and blog are 5 star output. Congratulations!

  33. 02.15.2012 / 8:47 pm

    thank you for posting the conversation. i really enjoyed being a part of the interview with mc queen. he came across so intelligent and sincere. the world was very lucky to have his design in it.

    • 02.16.2012 / 2:18 am

      Thank you Jamie for channeling him. I wish I had the ability to see and hear him myself. He is such an inspiration to me and seemed a very misrepresented person, according to his words. I hoped to live up to his advice by posting this and showing my readers all of me, not just the fashion and makeup. Hope to meet you in person soon! xoxo

  34. Jenny
    02.15.2012 / 9:00 pm

    I found this post very interesting to read! I love learning about things of this nature, and I think you’re brave for putting this out there when you knew that it’s something very personal that everyone might not respond to nicely. I love your normal content, but I think throwing things like this in the mix keeps things fresh! To each their own, but I thought his insights in the conversation were very true and enlightening, and concepts that anyone should incorporate into their lives! 🙂

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:33 pm

      Aw, thank you so much Jenny. That means a lot. Yes, I admit, I opened myself up to backlash by posting this, and certainly not everyone was keen on it, but it’s been such an enlightening experience for me to make myself vulnerable and not just show the “public” side of me on the blog. If that makes any sense. I truly believed in McQueen’s advice to show your WHOLE self, not just the bits and pieces you want people to think of you.

  35. 02.15.2012 / 9:03 pm

    That was amazing to read!! You must feel completely inspired after reading hearing all of the positive feed back about you and your blog. I am a new reader and am sorry to learn about your brothers passing but I think it was very VERY awesome of you to share this!!

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:31 pm

      I admit it’s still hard to believe that a name like that could have any inkling who I am (because honestly, it’s just a little blog) and some may see it in a negative light, but I believe we can get inspiration from many people, living or deceased, and in the end we are all equal, loving souls.

  36. 02.15.2012 / 9:30 pm

    I’m kinda choked up reading this because i often have conversations with my grandmother is my dreams and for the longest time i thought i need to be admitted somewhere. I believe in this sort of thing but i keep it to myself, I’ve always have vivid dreams since i was young girl, and i still have some of the same dreams. I know this isn’t a dream but i feel like the thought of connecting to one who has passed is possible.
    it’s so crazy to think that niether your mom nor Jamie knew much about him but they have all of this information. I dont have much else to say but I’m glad i read it.

  37. Jade
    02.15.2012 / 9:51 pm

    Kristina I’m an avid reader of your mum’s blog. I followed her link to this article. Well done girl!Well done on the website and on the article. You should be proud of what you have accomplished. And channelingerik has been a help and a lifesaver to many people, so sending my love to you, your Mum and your brother for your great work for humanity xx.

  38. Jenny
    02.15.2012 / 10:01 pm

    An intriguing post! I have read your Mum’s blog, which I have found enlightening and comforting, trying to work out with my own perspectives on life. Take care and love to your family xxx

  39. randy
    02.16.2012 / 12:41 am

    You have a lot of courage! Keep up the good work!

  40. 02.16.2012 / 12:51 am

    Hey Kristina,
    I’m a member of the Channeling Erik family and read your mom’s blog every day, and followed her link here to read this interview…fantastic! I am so thrilled that you felt brave enough and trusting enough to show this side of yourself to your readers – and as you can see, there are many who share your beliefs to varying extents. I admire and support you in all you do, and am so happy for your success with this great blog!

    Now that you’ve opened up a whole new dimension of yourself in here, I hope you will feel even more fulfilled with your expression and continue to expand yourself (and give your readers an opportunity to expand themselves as well)…and I’m sure Erik is thrilled for you too! 🙂

    Love and hugs,
    Ceridwen /|

  41. 02.16.2012 / 12:59 am

    Hey bestie!Just wanted to say I applaud your courage in expressing yourself through this post. Though I don’t share the same spiritual beliefs as yourself, I too believe in some form of an afterlife and what we do now in the long run affects what will happen later on whether it be while we are alive or after. It really is just about following what we know helps us cope with everything and ultimately believing that there’s a bigger force to everything. I admire you for being brave and sharing this with your readers, to give them an understanding of the beautiful, wonderful woman you are, aside from the fashion blogger, soon-to-be doctor side of yourself! We all have our own way to connect with the world around us and it’s important to give each other an ear to listen to when we need it.
    Love you always,

  42. 02.16.2012 / 1:29 am

    This was a very interesting post. I lost my older brother (then 33) to suicide as well and know how much a channeling experience of this sort would mean to my family. Thank you for sharing this.


    • 02.17.2012 / 4:29 pm

      I’m so sorry to hear about your loss, Karla. There’s always an opportunity to channel your brother – I would look into it if it’s something you’re interested in. But, it’s not for everyone. Lots of love, Kristina

  43. Lena
    02.16.2012 / 3:17 am

    Hey Kristina!This was awesome! I wouldn’t say I’m hugely into fashion, but I am a McQueen fan. I remember my jaw-dropping when I first saw Savage Beauty. Anyways, glad your Mom, Erik, and Jamie took the time to interview him. He always seemed like a very intense soul. Thanks for posting this!

    -CE Lena

  44. Leigh
    02.16.2012 / 3:32 am

    I’m still working out my own thoughts on the subject, but I think it’s so wonderful and brave to post something like this on your blog. Thank you for sharing.

  45. 02.16.2012 / 4:00 am

    Although, as a Muslim, I do not believe in life after death, I still loved reading the post and I feel that whatever one believes, it’s our duty to respect that. I love that you’re comfortable enough in your beliefs to post what you truly believe!

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:28 pm

      Thank you Asma! I appreciate you being so open and non-judgmental to others’ beliefs! I wish everyone could be like you!! (and so many people have, it’s astounding…I was waiting for someone to virtually whip me)

  46. Maria Laing
    02.16.2012 / 4:34 am

    Thank you, Kristina, for sharing this. I am a member of Channeling Erik and read your mother’s blog daily. My son, Michael, went missing just a few weeks before your brother Erik passed, so we have been on this journey together. Congratulations on all your accomplishments and for your willingness to balance the “inside” with the outside! Best wishes!!

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:27 pm

      I’m so sorry to hear about Michael, Maria. I’m sending you all of my love right now. Thank you for the sweet comment.

  47. Donna Block
    02.16.2012 / 4:35 am

    Hello Kristina,I am a faithful follower of your mom’s blog. I had the pleasure of meeting your family in Topanga last summer as well. I’ve often looked at your blog since she has a link from hers. I must say that I was really excited tonight to not only read her post, but then get to read another one on your blog! I hope no one leaves negative feedback for you because all that is is people who haven’t yet experienced what those of us who “know” Erik have. One day they will see things differently. If anything, maybe you will get more people to read your mom’s blog and they can start having some peace about the afterlife. Your mom is so proud of you! It’s so sweet 🙂 Donna in CA

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:27 pm

      Thank you so much Donna! Your words really mean a lot, and thank you for supporting my mom’s blog. It means so much to her to have your support. xo

  48. Sharne Warren
    02.16.2012 / 4:36 am

    What a great post, great to have our world expanded by someone like yourself! I do align with your beliefs and it really helps to know there is a point to all the pain and suffering on this planet and Mr McQueen was one of them, myself included at times in my live but it is insights like this that help me feel like there is hope at the end of the tunnel! Thanks for being so brave and revealing yourself, such an inspiration!

  49. 02.16.2012 / 6:00 am

    Well done! I think the importance of the message transcends all realms. Thank you for sharing.

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:26 pm

      Thank you Cheryl, your comment really meant a lot. <3

  50. Stacey
    02.16.2012 / 7:19 am

    Gosh, I just can’t help myself…. Although I’m a Christian, I DO believe in the abilities of psychics and mediums……Yes, it’s hard to put yourself out ‘there’ when you feel vulnerable to what others have to say. I wanted to know how those psychics could do what they did so I went to a school to learn. It wasn’t easy, working through all my pictures! Then I got those people who would challange my own ability with ‘prove it’ energy. Sometimes it created a space for doubt, but then I would remember what I had learned and continue to work through some more ‘pictures’ that obviously needed to go away. (Is that really a part of me being reflected back so that I could address that doubt in myself, myself?) For those who aren’t that comfortable with what you may have to say, that’s their problem. It is not up to you to make them comfortable with their ignorance. You created a platform to inform those who are ready to hear. Good Job!! I should think it to be quite exciting to get acknowledgement from someone you obviously admired! Way too cool! Now you know you can, who will your next muse interview be? : 0

  51. Nancy Antia
    02.16.2012 / 8:52 am

    Kristina,Thank you so much for the channeling! I really enjoyed it. What I liked most was when he said he had gained weight in the dimensions. It was not a joke, was it? I still don’t know how they do it but I know our loved ones in spirit can and do eat whatever they want where they are. They can produce anything instantly just by thinking about it.

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:25 pm

      I don’t think it was a joke, Nancy! I’ll admit it’s hard for my brain to wrap my head around a body-less spirit gaining weight, but I guess it makes sense! I’m definitely still learning…

      • Nancy Antia
        02.18.2012 / 4:21 am

        Hi Kristina,Thanks for your response.
        I knew our loved ones in spirit can eat and drink whatever they wish because I read what Erik said about it more than once. They just produce it from their thoughts instantly but yes, it’s hard to imagine how they actually eat and how it’s possible that they gain weight. For all that, I never doubted they do eat and drink pretty delicious stuff. Regarding Mr. McQueen, it sounded to me he was serious but I needed confirmation. You know, every bit of information on the afterlife is pure gold to me! Last night I remembered Pam Reynold’s NDE. It’s very interesting to know that she was fed something sparkly (like your blog and yourself) during her NDE to make her strong enough to go back to her body. She wouldn’t be admitted in the heavens back then because it was not her time. Here’s the address to the NDE account in case you wish to have a look at it:

  52. cindy webb
    02.16.2012 / 10:21 am

    Kristina, I also followed your Moms’ blog to this—BRAVO to you!

  53. 02.16.2012 / 5:12 pm

    I have just recently come across your blog and I have to say I was very interested in this post. I went to McQueen’s Savage exhibit last summer and before then I really did not know much about him. While I did appreciate all of his exhibit, for me it definitely had a tone of sadness and pain. I am glad to hear he has nourished himself. I definitely believe in psychic mediums and their abilities, however, I don’t know if I would want to speak with one. Is that weird? It’s not that I don’t agree with it, I think it’s more of a fear of the unknown.

  54. 02.16.2012 / 11:23 pm

    WOW!! that is crazy that they were able to channel him! where you there for this?? I cannot believe how much he was able to say it was almost like a complete interview! What an inspirational man he was and still is from beyond the grave! WOW, just wow! Awsome! I totally believe in speakin with the dead so thats awesome he had so much insight to his life and life in general!

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:20 pm

      Hey Jenny! I wasn’t there for it but I transcribed the conversation from the recorded telephone call. I think he had incredible insight and was an amazing person and is an amazing soul. Love him.

  55. 02.17.2012 / 8:05 am

    Hi Kristina,
    First off, let me say – I have loved “growing up” with you and your site since way back in 2009. 🙂 The videos that you’ve been doing are absolutely amazing, and your’e such an inspiration to the blogging community! Thank you for that. I should comment more, but alas, I can’t seem to make time (excuses, excuses, I know!)

    I loved this post. Really. I am not an exceptionally spiritual person, but I do like to be challenged in that way of thinking. This post was fun, and there was something incredibly authentic to it. I’m definitely going to check back to your mother’s blog often now, too.

    Hope you have a great weekend, lady! 🙂

    xx Hallie

    • 02.17.2012 / 4:19 pm

      Hallie, thanks so much for commenting. I know we all get busy!! I’m so glad you liked the post – I was a nervous wreck about publishing it, let me tell you. Thanks again and I’m going to check out your blog again!!

  56. Lauretta
    02.17.2012 / 5:17 pm

    I just recently found your lovely blog. I really love your fashion insite!! As I was avoiding mopping the floors one day, I decided to check out your archives. I found my self, two hours later, in tears reading your mothers blog. I am the “sensitive” one my family 😉 I lost my father when I was 15, about ten years ago. Like you and your family, I am a spiritual person who believes in past lives and soul survival. But unlike you I have not been able channel my father. We had a very special relationship and I miss him more than I could ever explain. Maybe when I have worked through my greif I will be able to channel him…
    I love that you are channeling fashion gurus! I love how you have woven fashions and spirituality together. Keep it up! And please keep us updated with your wedding planning as I am also planning a wedding.

    Light and Love,

  57. 02.17.2012 / 7:34 pm

    OK, so I tweeted you that I would write more of a comment after work… which was totally on Wednesday. And here it is Friday. Better late than never, right? 😉 I can only guess at how freaked out you must have been about hitting Publish! I completely agree: I put stuff out there on my blog that I’m totally afraid my family/friends will find and judge me for, yet for some reason I’m willing to share it with people I don’t even know! Makes no sense.
    Anyhow… I lost a good friend to suicide early in my life, and to be honest with you, I’ve always felt like he’s around if I need him. I have so many things I would ask, but have been terrified to bring up the concept because I feel like a) people will think I’m nuts and b) I feel like it would open up a whole new world of which I’ve been only intuitively and peripherally aware. So much of what Mr. McQueen said resonated with me, especially the parts about expressing yourself as a person/personality. THANK YOU for being brave enough to share this conversation!

    P.S. My hands were totally getting all clammy as I wrote this. Sign of emotional honesty, no? Although I’m sure part of it is due to the gross-out factor of just discovering a 3″ gecko in my dining room. Blech.

  58. Debbiew514
    02.18.2012 / 2:27 am

    Hi Kristina, I’m a big fan of your mom’s blog, and I really enjoyed this interview with Alexander McQueen. I especially admire your courage , the world needs more people like you and your family who are willing to stand up for what they believe in. Your blog is so beautiful and fun, congratulations on a job well done! I look forward to reading more interviews from fashion celebrities who have passed over in the future – best wishes!

  59. KMcHayes
    02.20.2012 / 12:40 am

    My hearts goes out to you for having the courage to do something like this. I believe this as well being a very spiritual person myself. WOW to channel McQueen. #EPIC.

  60. Laura S
    02.22.2012 / 9:51 am

    First of all, Kristina, I think you’re doing an amazing job with this blog, you’ve been a great inspiration when it comes to looking good and finding my personal style. I’m from Venezuela. That makes me your latinamerican fan xD amazing post, you had tons of courage by sharing this personal post which I loved! Thank you so much!

  61. 02.27.2012 / 9:07 am

    I have always though that Alexander McQueen was a brilliant Fashion Designer and loved all his stuff.

  62. 02.27.2012 / 9:28 pm

    Hi Kristina! I read this post when you first published it, and honestly, wasn’t quite sure what to think. Oddly, it’s been over a week, and I’m still finding myself thinking about it. It’s obviously left quite an impression on me, and I just wanted to say how impressed I am with your courage in putting something so personal, unique and different out there. Thank you for sharing. =)

  63. 02.27.2012 / 11:08 pm

    Hi Kristina! I have to say, this is a very interesting post. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it since I first read it! I think it’s very different and very cool and I give you major kudos for putting something like this out there. And I definitely don’t think you’re crazy for believing in life after death :).

  64. Sefa
    03.11.2012 / 10:53 am

    Actually I don’t 100% believe we can talk to dead people but when “Mr. McQueen” said, “It was the only way I knew how to express myself” really struck me. I’m glad I bumped to your blog, I think I’ll be regular visitor of your mom’s blog. Thanks & good luck for the wedding.

  65. L. L. Kay
    04.16.2012 / 12:28 am

    I feel compelled to leave a comment. I learned about Alexander McQueen watching Fashion Television. He would speak to Jeanne Beker (the host) like no other designer so humble and sometimes a bit sad and lost. I noticed this when he spoke and then I learned he took his life; for some reason it really struck me. How could someone so gifted and talented end their life; I guess we are all human no matter our greatness. I appreciated reading this. Thanks.

  66. murrychief
    05.17.2012 / 9:43 pm

    wow that was beautiful and awesome to know what his thoughts were on the other side. i like his fashion and thought it was very creative. keep up the good work on your site on fashion and other goodies that brighten up people lives.

  67. Tortuga62
    01.05.2013 / 10:05 pm

    Hi, Kristina,I found my way here after discovering your mom’s Channeling Erik blog a couple of days ago.
    How incredibly life-affirming it’s been for me!
    I agree with previous posters that you are very brave to post this interview of Mr. McQueen!
    You’re helping people find their own spiritual path and evidence to confirm life after life!
    This will give them so much hope!
    Your mom and dad must be amazing people to have raised such wonderful kids of good character!
    I’m not much into fashion or design — it doesn’t seem to be one of my gifts — but I sometimes wish it were.
    I liked his message about the importance of being your authentic self whilst expressing yourself through your life’s work.
    All the Best,

  68. Anna Young
    05.02.2013 / 7:27 am

    As a fashion lover myself, I felt very sad the moment McQueen’s death was announced. It is rather funny to end up here years after and from being Channeling Erik’s follower. Nothing is a coincidence, right? Thank you for posting this interview. The fashion world is indeed a difficult territory to be spiritual.

  69. Lillie
    02.15.2014 / 12:27 am

    Hi Kristina. Gurl, there is nothing crazy about believing in the afterlife. For you, your brother is living proof (in the afterlife), for me it is a host of friends and family. I don’t care if people think I’m crazy for believing in the afterlife. I know it is real.My brother, mom, aunt, high school friends, my son’s father and a host of others proved to me that life is never ending because of the physical death. I’m still waiting to hear from my cousin who committed suicide 30 years ago. Other than that, thank you for the interview with Sir Alexander. I do remember him. Another unicorn with so much inner beauty that is no longer here, but yet still here. Keep up the good work. Lillie

  70. Siret Torres
    09.06.2014 / 5:55 am

    Hi Kristina, i found CE blog a couple of weeks ago and i’ve been reading it non-stop since then. Thanks for the courage to post this, i love fashion (i used to have a blog and collaborate with online shops) and all things beauty, but also i have a spiritual side that has being growing more and more, and your dear brother is one of the triggers. Thank you so much for sharing this interview, i understand Sir McQueen better now, i feel very related to his life’s point of view and his passing was kind of shocking for me. I understand your concerns and fears but you know you’re not crazy at all 🙂 love you and wish you peace beyond all understanding

  71. Carolyn
    04.15.2015 / 7:54 pm

    All the way from New Zealand you are wonderful

  72. ivy gail
    05.05.2017 / 12:24 am


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